a streak of last minute changes

As time continues to go by, the pressure to decide on summer plans slowly builds up with the passing of each day. Some decisions were made hastily to satisfy the demands of time. However, this has been one of those times where God just completely blew me away in the way He works. You know how sometimes, you think you know how things will unfold or at least has a slight idea, and then everything just kind of takes a 180 turn? Better yet, have been in the situation where you're so caught up with wondering what you should do that God just goes ahead and makes the decision for you? Well then, you just might understand what I went through this week.


For a while now I've been contemplating as to whether or not I should move up to Edmonton, and if so, when and how I'll go about leaving my new job. Up to this point, I've had to cancel our trip to HK, back out on 2 youth camps and tried to get time off from work twice for 2 different occasions. Needless to say, I was a little flustered over all the changes already especially seeing how I'll have to travel back and forth between Edmonton and Vancouver for the next little while. Thursday rolls around and I was exhausted from papers, exams and work. After worship practice that night, I finally decide to check my voice message before heading to bed, thinking that it was from Cyrus. Little did I know it was from my work and there was a big surprise waiting for me. After hearing that they've decided to let me go, I sat there in shock for a good 5 minutes. It was so unexpected as things were going quite well in the office. Now of course, my pride was a little hurt as I was scrambling to find a reason for this. After waking Cyrus up at 3am, having him comfort and pray for me, I was still somewhat in shock. In the end, I decided that I don't need to know the reason why they suddenly decide to let me go but that all I need to know is that it was God's perfect plan.

And I must say, the timing couldn't have been better. The whole time before, I was wondering how I'm going to find a job in such a short period of time that will allow me to make just enough money before I need to head to Edmonton. After landing the job, I was struggling to decide when I should leave as I felt bad for working such a short time. While all this time, God had it all figured out already. He even quit my job for me! Honestly, even though my pride and self-esteem got a little shaken by this, it made things a lot easier for me. I've always had a hard time saying no or having to quit my previous jobs. Moreover, I've decided that office jobs are just not for me. Sure, the pay is nice and it makes me feel a little more superior and elite-like being an office admin. But again, as I dug down deep in my heart, I know that I'd much rather work with kids - even if it means less money. I was originally planning to hold off on pre-school teaching till later on but I have decided to give it a shot.

So as of now, I'm heading to Edmonton next week and the tentative date for my return is in June for my convocation and then it's back to Edmonton. But after that, I have no clue when I'll be going back to Vancouver. I'm super excited to go back yet at the same time, I'm quite sad to leave, knowing that it's quite possible that I won't be back for a while. But God has blessed me with many opportunities this week to spend time with my friends, my family and my brothers & sisters from church. I am especially grateful that given how things were within our fellowship, God has allowed me to mend friendships and re-strengthen some of the bonds between brothers and sisters. So even though I'm sad to leave them, I'm so happy to leave on a happy note knowing that things are all better again. I'm really going to miss our weekly worship practices, fellowship, sunday school and lunches. But at the same time, I am blessed to know that I have a wonderful group of brothers & sisters waiting for me in Edmonton as well.

I feel so very loved =)

Today in sunday school, our group was asked to share about experiences in which we felt that God was slow to deal with injustices. I honestly could not think of a personal one. Time after time, I have learnt just how perfectly God works in each of our lives and how perfectly timed each event is. I'm learning - slowly but steadily - to be patient and wait on God, for He is faithful and just.

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We’re living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I’m
Aware of just how fragile life can be.
I want to tell the world I found
The love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see.
Now everyday I’m praying
Just to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that He is…

Everything, everything
He’s more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He’s the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
Oh, He’s everything
He's everything to me

Avalon || Everything to Me